Nothing to loose

Sitting beside the window and watching the horizon, where sky hit the ground....
the line of joy and peace where there is no sky and no ground.... there is nothing there just as to be....
closer than what laid in horizon is the lake, which was here before me, it is here with me and after I die, it will remain here forever...
and on the lake are the house boats, where the most peaceful people on earth are living...
they have parties all night with their friends, they lay on their chairs and share the fish they catch every single day....

before the lake is the rocky ground of here, rocks and stones where they were here before me and they will be here forever... like life which never ends with my death and never starts with my birth... it is there, it is eternal...

and every single day I sit in this balcony with my own thoughts and write a few lines about how I feel today, not with regression of past and expectation of future, try to accept the day as the only valueable asset I have.

I agree to not get older than the age, I decided to live in, not the number which every single year the government, Corproholics decided to count for me...
yes I want to live in 30 and die in 30, so I want to stay 30 forever, because this is the age, I am at peace with myself...

I learned how to love myself, how to appriciate my achievements and how to be in tune with universe, and more important how to forgive myself, never blame myself for my mistakes, but always learn from them and grow with them...

Now, sitting on my chair at peace with universe and enjoying the eternal view of nature and sharing a cup of tea with me and my thoughts, I am sharing this moment now with me and myself and tomorrow with someone who deserves to sit here and see...

why I believe I have nothing to loose